Here is a suggestion for moving your recovery in the right the direction. What is the “right” direction? Well, that is the direction that leads you to a good relationship with your inner-self, your inner guide. I suggest you write, write and write some more.
Then I suggest you read what you wrote! How would you feel if you wrote me a note and I told you I got it, but didn’t read it? You feel slighted just at the thought of it, don’t you? Well you must read what you wrote! You have written yourself a note, now read it! This is the very first step we take towards gaining insight into who we really are!
Write, read what you wrote, perhaps reply to what you wrote and then read that too! A journal should not just be something you scribble in occasionally, and then leave in the bottom draw or some other hidden place. A journal is the very best way to connect to and communicate with the most important person in this world. Your own self!