Jealousy is a toxic feeling that creates fear and anxiety. Jealousy causes people to behave in ways they should not behave. Jealousy is not something we should “just learn to live with.” jealousy is something that we should dive deep down inside of ourselves and find the root cause of so that we can expel it from out lives. Jealousy causes internal energy blockages and forces us to dim our own light. The more jealous and envious you are of other people and things you see around you, the less able you are to allow your own light to shine through you. Jealousy is toxic.
I used to be stuck in the nightmare that was my childhood, now I am free. I was stuck in that old reality, where I learned bad habits and survival skills that no longer work for me as an adult. Now I am FREE to create my own reality as an adult in an adult world. I am no longer bound by the rules of my old universe, where I was taught that I existed to serve selfish, self-centered, egomaniacs who only cared for themselves. Now I can serve my higher power and the better part of me. Thank you, God, AA and ACA!
The human mind begins mapping its world very early, perhaps from within the womb. While at the same time, the human spirit is programmed to connect with the people who brought it into the world. That is when we learn, through assimilation, how to love ourselves and how to comfort for ourselves. If we don’t get the love and affection we require or if we get it in a way that is "wrong" or dysfunctional then our brains get programmed “wrong” or dysfunctional.
If we didn’t learn how to love and care for ourselves in a healthy life enhancing way as small children, it is not too late, we can learn those skills now. We must learn to love and care for ourselves, the way a loving parent or caretaker ought to have taught us to love ourselves. The way the people who brought us into the world should have (in a perfect world) We have to deprogram our brains of the dysfunctional way of not loving and caring for ourselves and reprogram our brains so that we can love and care for ourselves and learn to seek comfort from our inner self and higher power. This is no easy task, and should not be taken on lightly, but it is doable!